We all have mountains to climb

I have been trying to remind myself That each of us in our own little worlds have mountains we have to climb, some are daily some are a little longer. Sometimes life doesn't seem fair  and other times the puzzle pieces when turned seem to make sense. The great purge in some ways has ended and I am not as cheerful or as enlightened as I had hoped. I had such a cleaning "high" from a majority of the house and I procrastinated for so long doing the "study" and the hall closet. Aka the storage land 3/4 of our hidden life was in the closet our only closet to store things when you open the door it is like that silly cartoon where everything comes flying out at you. Yesterday it finally came down to it... I had to clean them there was nothing left.  Five hours several meltdowns and one frazzled moment I finished , just like that the purge ended. I did not however feel the satisfaction of "oh the house is ready" as I had anticipated. I felt anguish and frustration and today almost depression. I did get rid of several garbage bags. I just feel the panic now what if I didn't get rid of enough and yet I feel like we are down to the bare bones. I am just worried about "is it good enough". Which for a type A perfectionist control freak is not a good place to let your mind wander. I think this is why I don't feel the great satisfaction of a job well done. So this is the last mountain I have to climb I have to let go of that "is it good enough" baggage and it is a big hurdle. I need that piece of paper with our house hold goods weight on it saying "you did it this is your weight" to feel like I did what needed to be done. How silly am I ? I need the paper with the A grade to accept I really did my best. and that is what this whole thing boils down to really that last mental hurdle of Heather...... I have to accept for myself that I did the best I could and that it was the "right" thing. That is the thorny truth behind the baggage and the purge. Can I climb the mountain?

We all have challenges we face to some they seem small  for others it might be a huge mountain of life or death, but we all have to climb the mountain and survive. This is what character is built on how we handle the challenge laid before us great or small. 

I find my mind wandering to the book The Last Lecture  again a few quotes I feel apply for all of us today with our challenges

" That's  not something you can control so don't let it eat at you"

" Tenacity is a virtue"

" Brick walls are there for a reason they're not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something."

So no matter how grumpy I become today or tomorrow I must remember I am almost over this mountain, there will be a beautiful view when I reach the top and I have to get ready for the next mountain.