Monday, June 30, 2008

Family, The witness protection agency, and knitting


There is a mouth full in a title..... It has been one of those weeks that only a large bottle of wine and 12 pages of writing could cover. Instead I will once again remember I am trying to simplify and condense. I have to mention I watched a TV show I have no idea what it was I was knitting as therapy to recover .

On a totally random side note I once heard a line " We don't hide our crazies in the south we put them on parade with pride." ( Designing Women)

Back to knitting for therapy..... I have a new knitting book I am super excited about called AlterKnits very fun very different stuff. I am so excited to start I just have to finish up the 3 other projects I am working on. I am trying to use up all the spare yarn around and get back on track with the policy of having only the yarn for project. I was knitting away thinking how much I love to knit and how soothing it is. I can always tell if I am feeling stressed I knit more and find time to finish and start projects. There is just something about knitting that is so calming.

Back to the TV show and what I really wanted to cover today. The witness protection program... So we see this in TV and movies all the time people just "erased" and relocated with this new life and a clean slate. I think about this whenever I see the WP pop up. Is that really how it goes? Could I do that if I had to. I pride myself on being independent and able to adapt. I have to in military family life; but could I really walk away from it all like that in a split second. This is also good mental training for purging more from my house . Especially because I am creeping closer to the tougher rooms to let go of things the study the garage ( where 1/2 my life is stored) and the kitchen ( where I feel like I live). What can I give up let go of and walk away from? I always wondered if I could. I think about my closest friends then I scheme ways to think how I could re enter their lives as the new relocated witness me. I think sometimes it would be nice to change everything be something new start completely over forge a new path with new goals. The key element here really the draw or the glamour in the plan is to be free of all baggage mental and physical just like that. to let go off all the silly stuff that has been around forever. Of course after hours of mulling this all over, well maybe not hours maybe just minutes I realize that while I would love to toss the old bad baggage it would mean loosing all the good baggage too. All the great memories I share with my family and friends and the opportunity to call and share those moments in a split second.

In a way the nomadic life I have chosen is a realistic way to have that clean slate with witness protection program; with out losing all of the good in my life. Every place I go I start fresh with a clean slate new goals and new opportunities to be a better person. What more could I ask for? While shedding the baggage of the last place can pose a challenge the reward is also wonderful. New and old friends from around the world, new and different challenges and goals to meet.

I just hope that I can loose the 5,000 lbs of stuff I have to before I embark on this long journey to a new continent. What am I willing to let go off and keep, to reach new goals?

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