So on my way to blog I was suppose to be knitting....

I LOVE those days where the slate is clean and anything could happen........ yet in a paradoxicalway surprises scare me hahahahah moving on..... well actually that fits the theme today. While I was looking or doing something I was led off in other directions.... full of love friendship and surprises. I heard from My friend Rachael today !!!!!!!!! her blog is listed below in the other blog section she is in japan and I LOVE it when she e-mails because she is wittyand funny and  she always makes me smile so she e-mailed me a quick note and it was awesome..... her baby Riley is here !!!! I am awaiting more details and I am dying to see a picture of that baby !!!! her husband is a photographer too.. you would think we could get exclusives but no .... I am the one who takes the pictures in my family too how funny is that !!!!... and I had a lovely conversation with my friend Jessica.....awaiting her baby no. 2 she also always makes me smile she and her wonderful husband are two of the most genuinely nice people I know, She also makes me smile... so my goal of making sure I talk to someone everyday is happening..... it sounds odd I know but since I have had the twins....and I live in an anti social community... it is hard to talk to another human in a day. Then I got a funny note from Jenny that was awesome to she always has a grounding effect on me ..... I sent pics of sassy girl S with her purse out..... because Jenny can appreciate the love a little girl has for her purse..... :) and I received a good funny note. My little sassy s loves purses it is hilarious..... with 3 boys in the house one of which her twin I knew it could go either way she could have been very girlie or a tomboy...... of course the fact I put dresses shoes and hair-bows on the girl probably stacked the deck hahahahahahh. she is a girl with her own will some tomboy some girlie.... and totally sassy.......it is a riot to watch.....especially when she interacts with her 3 brothers.....who could be a stand up comic routine on their own hahahahahah.... but I digress..... this whole day has been this...... one thought leads to another..... not quite as bad as a If you give a Moose a Muffin day and much funnier hahahahahah.... also a common theme here.

Moving on so I have been reading blogs up a storm in an effort to evolve in my own and wow there are some amazing blogs out there !!!! I may have to feature a post of the day on my site.. which by the way there is a group out there who gives awards to bloggers for "posts" of the day very interesting !!!! so I was reading a blog from my friend Rachael's blog it is a friend of hers..and I LOVED the post it was about Career's and returning to work as a mom, military-wife etc. but mostly about a mom who has been a stay at home mom for awhile and is going to go back to work and what would she be?..the link is here: check it out

http://terryrye.blogspot.com/

in the spirit of this... I could relate totally.... I have gone to school I hold a masters degree I have never used..... and I have no real hard core work experience under my belt I am a stay at home mom and will be for awhile.. I have been "at home on duty" for 7 years... 7 years and yet it feels like yesterday Sam and I made the choice for me to stay home with then little T.......7 years !!!!!! so what will I be when I grow up?... ok get ready for a very good laugh as a small girl I wanted to be a Fashion designer/nurse/bush pilot married to a rock star.......... oh and I was going to have 3 kids.......

but now mmmmmmm... I think Sam is a rock star photographer:)... I do have to sew mend and come up with costumes for the kids..... and with 3 boys I often feel like I am running an ER.......ok ok I am making an attempt to make my daily life a bit more glamorous than it is......

what would I be? What could I be?...... I know I want to travel the world and write..... I would like to plan events..... and I still think someday I would like to fly a plane..... so now what?

How does one do this? and in my journey to find this... because I am a gal who needs multiple things going at once..... how do I find my dreams?

I know that often we wake up and we do find we have everything we ever dreamed of in unusual ways we may not have pictured or imagined them happening......I especially find Sam has taught me this lesson several times...... so in a year where will I be in this Journey to travel and write and plan?

where will you be ... what do you dream...... and Jenny I know you will really want to ........

Liz and Tara... have been job hunting for awhile a scary scary endeavor I commend them for making in a year where will your journey take you? Then there is Pauline... who helps waylaid find their way as a staffer.....how do you put it all together in a neat package to sell to an employer? she is amazing at taking all the loose ends and putting them in their place.....

so I ask all of you.. What would you be......

oh yes and in the spirit of this way laid post hahahah I was on my way to knit the super hero capes I am making for the dynamic duo P & S.. ( I have knit each one of the kids a cape which they love) when I began to read all these blogs..... so now the questions are out there and the blogs are read I am now going to go knit my superhero capes..... Love to all of you I am fortunate to call friends you enrich my life in ways you can't imagine !

P.S. the sideways glance above.. is P being his usual comedian self .... I felt safe posting his pic.... of course when he's 16 he may have words for me hahahahah

Evolution

Well it has been a few days since I posted last and so much has happened.

About the time we pick up speed on the road to a fresh start there are sometimes "road blocks" it was tough weekend . S had an allergic reaction and landed in the hospital she is ok now but our life has changed a bit... they think she may still be milk and soy intolerant but that she could still be fine by age 2. So we have had to drastically change her diet. She has recovered nicely and is back to her happy little self which makes me a very happy mommy ! T had a tough weekend to as many of you know T has bi polar as well as a mirade of other things. There are so many days I am so torn I wish I could speak his language and understand his world.. then there are days I want to rip my hair out in frustration at the whole situation. This weekend I had a challenging visit with his doctor... not one of my finer moments she poked a raw wound and much to my horror the words spilled out of my mouth and I lost my composure... this was one of my very famous " help save me from myself" moments..... sometimes I wish I could turn off my emotions and be dignified and perfect every moment... but then I would probably have little to write about... or laugh about in my old age .. although again why do I need to get so fired up? of course once again it involved protecting my family...... I swear I really need to not be so territorial...... I always wonder where that emotion comes from. Thankfully I think that things were mended by the end of the appointment but, I still wish I had done better.

I was looking over the comments in my posts and I have to say I was shocked and amazed to see that the author of the Marrakech blog left me a comment !!!!!!!! holy cow I am awe struck her is this amazing woman who is living this amazing life and she has the time to leave a comment on my little blog !!!!! I was shocked and touched it was really cool. and to think I was in shock at opening this blog up..... which brings me to the other topics of this novel length post.

I started this blog on a journey to find a part of myself I had lost in the shuffle of daily life to have an outlet to write and to share with others their thoughts too. I had always hoped to make my blog more interactive and exciting to have it evolve with me. Maybe even someday feature my writings. Reading all these other blogs I feel pale and colorless and I hope to change that someday I hope to have more pictures art links and resources and more of a personal background..... To have this inspirational person even visit this site wow.... it gives me a nudge to try harder strive for more.....

initially I stated her writing style was quirky or unusual.... truly though I don't do it justice it took me awhile to get used to her blog style but it is so unique and different I like the different "voice" and I encourage all of you to go and see it ... it is a wealth of information for all kinds of things and all so fun..... it has taught me so much about blogging..... I am really a novice but maybe someday I will be better:)

speaking of evolutions..... a running theme here I was thinking about the women I have the privilege of calling friends they are as different and unique as can be and I smile I love that ! but several of them are pregnant or have a family or friend that are pregnant.... I was standing at P's dresser pulling things out that he has out grown and I always try to make boxes to send to people I smile as I go through things thinking of who would enjoy what I like that.... what is it about women that we are able to bind together when it comes to family? babies? this whole instant support network appears with a coming child it is amazing and something we inherently share together. I had to think about to I know several of us who would have strong feeling about how children should be or how they should be raised how what the circumstances should be surrounding their births... several of my friends have sisters or family members they are frustrated with over just this.... children out of wedlock or in different situations..... these friend struggle with other's choices it worries them it concerns them..... and yet they are putting aside all these feelings to help prepare for these children coming... what a unique thing about women.... that isn't to say men don't have feelings or don't get excited.. my one fiend's sister is having a baby and her husband was talking to me the other day he can't for the life of him figure out why she is buying stuff for her sister's baby and helping her to prepare when the husband says they have never gotten along before this....... so as I was folding a shirt and  pajama's to send to another friend I was on the phone with another friend who's nephew just had a baby at a young age and her frustrations over the impact this has on everyone's life.. yet she went and celebrated the christening with her family...... so what is it about the miracle of children that bind us together .. maybe bring us together when we were once separate... we all smile we all find that common thread that binds us.... and we celebrate it is this not amazing !!!!!

one of my favorite things about anthropology ( my background) is that the more you study the differences of societies the more you can see just how alike we all are that deep down inside the same things in life are important to us... the same fundamental things bind us together and that we are more alike than we are different.  Everyday I have the privilege of seeing little signs of this everywhere and as different as my friends and families lives are we are all the same in what we want. Shakespeare get a bad rap often because of the cumbersome language ... but I think it is another great reminder of the things that bind us all together  hundreds of years later the emotions depicted in these stories and writings still capture the basic essence of human emotion today we all feel the same things at one point in our life or another at different levels or in different ways but the same. I only hope that this will help us all evolve together into better things for our world. Our paths may all be different but lets hope they all cross at some point to meet for a great party at the end :)

while I hit a few emotionl blocks this past weekend I hope this blog as well as myself evolves into something better everyday !...and that I find great tech suporrt to teach me how :) hahahahahahahahahah

whirling Dervish !!!!!

Holy cow today has been a blur of ideas and wow everything is flying at me all at once one idea has lead me to more in unexpected ways and a wealth of information almost too much to absorb has come my way !!!!! I had thought of trying to travel once a year for a month to some exotic place kids in tow... and i have been working out how to make that happen... well low and behold my edition of 2 travel mags have come in the mail yesterday and last night I begin to read about 3 people totally different people who have made travel their buss. ( wow how jealous am I can I so be them !!!!) and how they did it.. well while searching site they suggested to do just this I was lead to 3 other sites that contained so much information that could make it all happen for me that my head is still spinning with all the news and ideas ........

and then I read another article... another doctors office about writing .. my other project at the moment trying to get my books published and I am finding hope in odd places !!!!! I am so excited I felt as though my world had closed in on me and yet over the last week ish I have been trying to change ... despite best sidetracking skills of the 4 kids especially the twins hahahahahah and I have found this wealth of info I feel more optimistic by the moment I can't wait to share with all of you the websites and info too as I know many of you are working on the same things I am !!!

off to read more I can't wait to share !!!!!

Marrakesh

While sitting in the multitute of Doctor's office's waiting for T's various and many apointments I often get to read wild magazines I wouldn't normally read... hence the tattoo article in INC. I mentioned before..... well it happened again I read this great article in Budget Travel Magazine...and as you all know I am a vagabond at heart so I went to the website to find more it is sooooo fun I will have to include some of the cool tips for travel I read about they are really quite handy but I digress...anyways so online I found this article it was awsome

http://www.budgettravel.com/bt-dyn/content/article/2008/02/25/AR2008022502908.html

and in it is a another fun blog although I haven't completely gotten her style of writing there is some cool stuff

open to anyone

well I did it today Ioffically opened the blog to anyone I am hyperventalating but it is open.... judging by the number of people who previously read the blog I'm sure I will be fine  as not that many want to read my ramblings. :)

But there we have it this blog is open......scary.......

Productive day

I finished my third children's story today so three are ready to go...well typed and ready... till I figure out how to formatt them better for submission..... I am very excited !

Sam's photgraph made it into USA TODAY !!!!!!!! 4-22-08 edition page 4A I am so excited for him..... and several of his IO's noticed so this is even better !

the sun is shinning the kids have been good I even took P & S in the bike trailer while we rode to take H to school today.....

a good day all the way around  and hugs and love to all of my friends and family !

Give Blood

Ok you know how you get to many "signs" that you can't ignore it anymore...well this happened also today/yesterday. I encourage all of you to go out and find a location near you that is either having a blood drive or of course the local blood bank. Recently my uncle who is battling cancer needed a transfusion and I felt so faraway and unable to help..... I was reminded of how my Grandfather regularly gave blood and encouraged everyone who could to do this ..... Then I saw 3 e-mail notices ... one of my favorite TV shows is doing a mass blood drive out here in CA Moonlight ...and it reminded me of the importance of this...... I also found my wonderful husbands blood card while spring cleaning....... Sam is so awesome he donates regularly.... of course due to his deployments he hasn't been able to...... but he does it often and he really believes in this cause. So I am saying go out there and yes of course I am going to go do it myself:)

Go give blood !!!!!!