Transition.....

I have been away so long it is almost like starting over, which is interesting because that is the theme of my life....... I wish I could tell you that the transition has gone smoothly or that everything is rainbows and butterflies........ However this would make for a much less interesting read and we know that just isn't how things go here. We have had what seems like the endless move...... 3 flights, 3 trucks...... 3 months and finally we are unpacking again. Lats year I spent my anniversary cleaning out the garage to move...... This year I spent my anniversary cleaning the garage to organize moving again......Just about the time I felt like I was living in the present instead of waiting for the future...... Sam left again for another of many TDY's ...... and the hiccups to settling in started cropping up on a daily basis.......Some days it is as if we are in a whirlwind watching everything calm and undisturbed around us...... other days I wonder when the next storm is going to arrive. I can say this past year... has been all about transition......
We have moved twice in one year.... We have seen T's diagnosis change and T come and go from a treatment facility....... H has had 3 schools in 2 states and another country...... P & S have started to talk and moved forward.......

right now we are in a state of transition again... T has returned home ...which is wonderful and yet brings new challenges to our house..... T has to learn to live with us again and try to navigate being in a different place...... an extreme challenge for someone battling Bipolar and Asperger's...... I know all of us are so happy to have him home and we are glad to all be in the same location again...... well almost ( in typical fashion one of us is gone... Sam is off at a training)....... Home again to be loved and share in all of our family adventures and to settle in to being loved in a home environment........ however some moments it feels as though nothing has changed and the same challenges are still there...other moments there is a refreshing change that brings hope for all of us........

Moving back has been good there are services here for T that are necessary for his daily life..... however navigating the unknown and struggling through the transition of a new place makes me miss my friends in Germany........ and wonder what could have been.....

All of us go through transition on a daily basis sometimes small like going from work to home...and sometimes large like learning to live without someone we love.......I often wonder if transition will ever be a simple process? holding on to hope and our faith is important....... how long can we hope and struggle? When do we say we give up? When to we embrace change and all of it's possibility.......

I have smiled and laughed I have bought a house, found some friends and anticipate the excitement of the coming months....... but sometimes I wonder when will the waiting end and when will "life" begin? ....Instead of always being in transition?

The purple toes healed...... however...... the day we went to the lake to camp.. the twins tripped me coming out of the shower ( a glass/metal door) and the purple toes are now purple again..... so even toes have to go through transition to get to there "normal" life......