Sunday, July 26, 2009

Faith Love and Trust

We are all human... we all experience the same emotions... in different ways..... now the creative collection of expression that comes from us is really the zest of life.....

Have you ever noticed when you are having a terrible time with relationships...all you notice is how in love everyone is or how there is a couple everywhere you look.....

or when you are trying to have a baby everyone you know is pregnant but you.... ( NO NOT ME !!!!!!!)

well when your life is full of trails and transition and you think you have lost your faith in every single thing you ever held dear....... it seems everyone is on cloud nine and their life couldn't be anymore fabulous........

yes I have become a jaded recluse because transitioning is not as I would wish it to be......

At first my blogging slowed because I had technical challenges..... lack of computer lack of Internet lack of computer messed up Internet..... no computer..... blah blah blah.....

This past week I have had writers block...I want to write daily... I thought about a weekly post.... I like it just the way it is when I feel like it.... however I haven't written this week because how do you write with a positive spin on it all when you just want to scream ? .... How do you keep your blog from turning to a dark twisted path ? I am not jaded or cynical...so why then do I find it a daily struggle to fight it?

What if we said we gave up on everything and we would start with a clean slate? I mean what if we have lost faith in everything that was ourselves and we wanted to find a new path for our faith..... or just give up on it? Do we have enough in ourselves to love when it is near impossible to do so? How do you trust that this is just a bump in the road and tomorrow the sun will shine your faith will be restored and love will abound from your soul????

It really does come down to Faith love and , trust.........

I have several friends right now going through one thing or another.... I mean my life may seem all dark and twisted.... with no hope.. yet I am not watching a parent die, I have not lost a mother or father.... my children are not in trouble with the law...... I haven't lost my job.... I am not starting another move..... trying to get pregnant....... looking for the love of my life......
I am just trying to hold out another day and remind myself the Faith Love and trust will prevail....

For all of you out there going through all the same feelings in another setting, or life experience .. know you are loved.. Have faith that tomorrow will be better and trust that some solution will come...... Especially those of you who I know and love who have trouble believing in yourselves..... have Faith that you can do this... and that you are wonderful and loved.. that's why you have friends who adore you... Trust that when you need it to be there it will......

Now I am going to go and try to shake this and take my own advice :)

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