Will I ever find it?

I have been viewing all kinds of blogs.. a lot off of the posh mama blog. I recently got an e-mail from Posh mama asking people to send in info stats etc. to be a contributing author over the summer season a substitute writer for the regulars. I became very excited it would be a chance for me to write on a topic and put my toe in the writing pool for real. But, I look at some of the other contributors blogs and web sites and think I am in soooo far over my head. I still haven't figured out how to alter my wall paper to make this blog more my own space and color. and I read their blogs and yes I have helpful tips and great finds but no where near the level they do. So I feel down again. will I ever have the courage to dive in? or the talent to do so. I am creative and fun and inspired but I seem to be in a rut. so what now? will I forever be frumpy mom or will I find my inner girl and go on with out fear of failure and find my passion? well off to fold the incredibly large mounds of laundry I have 4 huge baskets and rising.