Evolution

Well it has been a few days since I posted last and so much has happened.

About the time we pick up speed on the road to a fresh start there are sometimes "road blocks" it was tough weekend . S had an allergic reaction and landed in the hospital she is ok now but our life has changed a bit... they think she may still be milk and soy intolerant but that she could still be fine by age 2. So we have had to drastically change her diet. She has recovered nicely and is back to her happy little self which makes me a very happy mommy ! T had a tough weekend to as many of you know T has bi polar as well as a mirade of other things. There are so many days I am so torn I wish I could speak his language and understand his world.. then there are days I want to rip my hair out in frustration at the whole situation. This weekend I had a challenging visit with his doctor... not one of my finer moments she poked a raw wound and much to my horror the words spilled out of my mouth and I lost my composure... this was one of my very famous " help save me from myself" moments..... sometimes I wish I could turn off my emotions and be dignified and perfect every moment... but then I would probably have little to write about... or laugh about in my old age .. although again why do I need to get so fired up? of course once again it involved protecting my family...... I swear I really need to not be so territorial...... I always wonder where that emotion comes from. Thankfully I think that things were mended by the end of the appointment but, I still wish I had done better.

I was looking over the comments in my posts and I have to say I was shocked and amazed to see that the author of the Marrakech blog left me a comment !!!!!!!! holy cow I am awe struck her is this amazing woman who is living this amazing life and she has the time to leave a comment on my little blog !!!!! I was shocked and touched it was really cool. and to think I was in shock at opening this blog up..... which brings me to the other topics of this novel length post.

I started this blog on a journey to find a part of myself I had lost in the shuffle of daily life to have an outlet to write and to share with others their thoughts too. I had always hoped to make my blog more interactive and exciting to have it evolve with me. Maybe even someday feature my writings. Reading all these other blogs I feel pale and colorless and I hope to change that someday I hope to have more pictures art links and resources and more of a personal background..... To have this inspirational person even visit this site wow.... it gives me a nudge to try harder strive for more.....

initially I stated her writing style was quirky or unusual.... truly though I don't do it justice it took me awhile to get used to her blog style but it is so unique and different I like the different "voice" and I encourage all of you to go and see it ... it is a wealth of information for all kinds of things and all so fun..... it has taught me so much about blogging..... I am really a novice but maybe someday I will be better:)

speaking of evolutions..... a running theme here I was thinking about the women I have the privilege of calling friends they are as different and unique as can be and I smile I love that ! but several of them are pregnant or have a family or friend that are pregnant.... I was standing at P's dresser pulling things out that he has out grown and I always try to make boxes to send to people I smile as I go through things thinking of who would enjoy what I like that.... what is it about women that we are able to bind together when it comes to family? babies? this whole instant support network appears with a coming child it is amazing and something we inherently share together. I had to think about to I know several of us who would have strong feeling about how children should be or how they should be raised how what the circumstances should be surrounding their births... several of my friends have sisters or family members they are frustrated with over just this.... children out of wedlock or in different situations..... these friend struggle with other's choices it worries them it concerns them..... and yet they are putting aside all these feelings to help prepare for these children coming... what a unique thing about women.... that isn't to say men don't have feelings or don't get excited.. my one fiend's sister is having a baby and her husband was talking to me the other day he can't for the life of him figure out why she is buying stuff for her sister's baby and helping her to prepare when the husband says they have never gotten along before this....... so as I was folding a shirt and  pajama's to send to another friend I was on the phone with another friend who's nephew just had a baby at a young age and her frustrations over the impact this has on everyone's life.. yet she went and celebrated the christening with her family...... so what is it about the miracle of children that bind us together .. maybe bring us together when we were once separate... we all smile we all find that common thread that binds us.... and we celebrate it is this not amazing !!!!!

one of my favorite things about anthropology ( my background) is that the more you study the differences of societies the more you can see just how alike we all are that deep down inside the same things in life are important to us... the same fundamental things bind us together and that we are more alike than we are different.  Everyday I have the privilege of seeing little signs of this everywhere and as different as my friends and families lives are we are all the same in what we want. Shakespeare get a bad rap often because of the cumbersome language ... but I think it is another great reminder of the things that bind us all together  hundreds of years later the emotions depicted in these stories and writings still capture the basic essence of human emotion today we all feel the same things at one point in our life or another at different levels or in different ways but the same. I only hope that this will help us all evolve together into better things for our world. Our paths may all be different but lets hope they all cross at some point to meet for a great party at the end :)

while I hit a few emotionl blocks this past weekend I hope this blog as well as myself evolves into something better everyday !...and that I find great tech suporrt to teach me how :) hahahahahahahahahah