Life Changes

As many of you know my uncle is battling renal cancer.... we recently learned it has moved to his lungs.....I hear through my family grapevine that he is optimistic and doing the things he loves to do. This makes me happy I love my uncle he is a great guy quiet a man of few words but you know he loves you. I wish I lived closer to be there to help to hang out and visit and just be there. it is hard to live so far away. My own struggles seem small compared to his and I have to say that has crossed my mind the  last few days while I have wallowed in my pity party. I have this tough class, a crazy family, 4 kids... and PMS..... bad combo I have gained some weight more than I want I have been depressed I have said goodbye to friends who have moved and others deploying..... I feel far away and down..... yet it is small in the big scheme of things and all things I can change.... I am not one given to open prayer or talking religion but I feel that lately I must nourish that part of my soul and share ... this is one of my favorite meditations from the Siddur Sim Shalom

" Facing Life Changes

Help me, O God, To find still moments,

Quiet spaces within which to refresh my soul:

Cease my questions, my inner debates,

And let me meditate on Your goodness.

Help me, O God, to nurture my courage,

Recalling moments of strength,

Remembering days of fortitude,

The certainty of your regard.

Help me, O God, to grasp changed visions,

 Filmy curtains to blur my unhappiness

And wrap my tears with radiance,

Your hand upon my face.

Help me, O God, to turn to the light,

Warmed face and fingers outstretched,

Alive, alive in your sight.

-Debbie Pearlman"

I think all of us can relate..... and Uncle Bob I say a special prayer for you and Aunt Gale everyday... if anyone has the spirit to kick this it is you.

And Jenny.. who gets it and my crazy Homily dreams :)